HOW GREAT IS MY FAMILY?

I WILL WRITE IT WHEN I HAVE TIME!

I FELT GUILTY!!

Today is the day that my brother came back from Cambodia. He was back in the morning. I decided to pick him up from the Changi airport by going with my friend, Kris. I went with her because her sister and my brother were simultaneously came back Singapore.When I was looking around to search for him and my other friends(Alicia,Janice and Annie), my attention was distracted by a young man. The man was wearing a black T-shirt with a tie ,a pair of black short and black shoes. He was change quite a lot from what he was in Singapore last month. The man was my brother.I was shocked by his dressing.When he saw me, he show a broad smile to me. That smile made me felt happy as well as guilty in my heart because I did not send him to the airport when he was going back to Cambodia. I blamed myself : What kind sister are you? others could send their friends or their relatives to the airport, why am I so lazy? how can I be a sister? I never act as a good sister at all. I wanted to say 'sorry' to him but I just could not open my mouth.'Never mind, next time must do something nice to my brother and do not repeat the history' I said to myself in my mind.
To be nice to my brother, today I brought him to eat KFC which I thought he wanted to eat.I do not know why? whenever he is with me, he always smile at me and respect me as his sister all the time. He has never complained to me about bad behaviors towards him.

I feel grateful to have such a good brother in my life^^

Now not feeling to study

haha...the whole day studied from morning until now, i feel my head is stored a lot of things but i do not know what they are.Is it about chem or SS??There is only these two choices because i have only learn them for today.I think i have not put my effort enough to study for my O level yet.I hope tomorrow i can have energy to revise other subjects.I feel regret that why i did not study at the beginning of this year.I always ask myself that is it too late now? To encourage me, my soul always comfort me by saying this to me "It is not the matter of the time but it is the matter of your effort.If i do your best,you will get the result that you want."I replied back,"Can it be that way?"Suddenly, the silent took place and no body answered this question. I think i will get the answer at the end of this year.I feel hestitated as i eager want to know my result and i do not want to know my result. The reason is when i know my result, that day will tell me whether i need to go back Cambodia or continue stay in Singapore. I am very afraid of thinking going back because i do not want people use a frastrated expression look at me and mainly i do not want my parents to look dull.On the other hand, i want my parents feel proud of me and feel sacrify to have me as their daughter.Moreover, i want my brothers and sister to follow me and take me as their role model. Can it come true? i wish..
After writing this, it helps me a lot as it makes me feel better and teaches me what to do on the next day.
COME ON! VANESSA! YOU CAN DO IT! WANT TO FULFILL YOUR DREAM?? STUDY HARD FOR ONLY THIS PERIOD, AFTER THIS YOUR WILL LIVE IN A HAPPY WITH NO WORRIED!